I’m currently listening to the new Sloan song and I must say that I really enjoy it. I mean, it’s a nice simple song but the lyrics say so much. I’m starting to think I’m being silly. I look at my life and feel that I’m heading nowhere, I’m still young right? But if I’m still young, why don’t I feel like I am? I feel like I’m wasting time doing nothing. I’m ready to settle down, but is that too soon? I mean, I’m only 20. But then I look at this boy and he’s 23 and he’s still having the time of his life. Does he not think about his future? And then I feel like I’m wasting all my time on him and that I should just move on. But I can’t because I’m retarded like that. Maybe I should have fun too. I mean, that’s what people keep telling me. Fuck, why is it that we do the things that are wrong for us? I know in my head that it’s a bad idea, after all, some part of me has to be logical. But I never listen to it. It’s just like giving good advice to someone but you’re not even able to follow this advice!
And I've been really bitchy lately and I think it's the heat and all this shit I've been thinking about. For once, I want all these thoughts and questions to be gone! I would like to sleep in peace. And the lack of sleep is probably another contribution as to why I am a bitch. So, I'm sorry if I've been a bitch to anyone lately.