mystery to me (mystery_to_me) wrote,
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I want somebody to love

Yesterday was Michael P’s last day. And I’m really going to miss that fucker. When they threw him the surprise going away party, I got all teary-eyed. He was the only that made people laugh when they were feeling blue! I wish he didn’t have to go. But then again, I’m a person who doesn’t like change. I know I’ll eventually adapt to it. But it seems like he has his priorities straight. And I’m happy for him. And we’ll all be there to support him when his movie comes out. I’m sure it’ll be a smash. He’s a man with a plan!

I’m currently listening to the new Sloan song and I must say that I really enjoy it. I mean, it’s a nice simple song but the lyrics say so much. I’m starting to think I’m being silly. I look at my life and feel that I’m heading nowhere, I’m still young right? But if I’m still young, why don’t I feel like I am? I feel like I’m wasting time doing nothing. I’m ready to settle down, but is that too soon? I mean, I’m only 20. But then I look at this boy and he’s 23 and he’s still having the time of his life. Does he not think about his future? And then I feel like I’m wasting all my time on him and that I should just move on. But I can’t because I’m retarded like that. Maybe I should have fun too. I mean, that’s what people keep telling me. Fuck, why is it that we do the things that are wrong for us? I know in my head that it’s a bad idea, after all, some part of me has to be logical. But I never listen to it. It’s just like giving good advice to someone but you’re not even able to follow this advice!

And I've been really bitchy lately and I think it's the heat and all this shit I've been thinking about. For once, I want all these thoughts and questions to be gone! I would like to sleep in peace. And the lack of sleep is probably another contribution as to why I am a bitch. So, I'm sorry if I've been a bitch to anyone lately.

“Life is so rad...”
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