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And she's climbing the stairway to heaven

I'm so mad at myself!
It's midnight and here I am trying to cram all this film arts info into my head. But nothing's going in.
I said i was going to spend this whole day studying? Yeah, right! So I spent the morning working on my Networked Imagination essay. I'm half done. Still 1000 more words to go. And when I tried studying for film arts, I fell asleep. The first time I started drifting off to sleep, I fell into a deep one and I tried waking myself up, but it took a long time. You know when you're half asleep, you can talk in your head and when you're in the deep sleep, your brain is off drifting somewhere. Well, I went from that deep sleep, to the half asleep and it was difficult trying to open my eyes and wake up. It was weird...
I get this e-mail from my film arts prof saying how the date of the film arts exam does not fall under the guidelines and that the post-exam date will be April 30 at noon.
I want to get this exam over with, but i don't think it's gonna happen. It looks like I'm gonna have to take the exam on April 30th. It's the only way, especially if I want to pass. I looked over those terms nothing was getting into my head. I understand some of them but I can't explain them. ANd some how, I'm missing notes! I dunno how that happened. So instead of scrambling and worrying, I think I'm going to take my time and relax. At least now I can focus on Film Arts. And I can go home right after Phil tutorial. I can try my best and concentrate. Hopefully.

I dunno, my mind likes to run elsewhere. I couldn't stop thinking about everything, especially about the whole thing that happened at work. It's gonna be weird. For once, I'm sacrificing fun for work. Unless I can make it home in time....hmm..I guess it all depends...

On another note, I think I'm starting to like this person again. I dunno...It's weird...but it's not like anything is going to turn out the way I want them to be. It never does. Sometimes I wonder if I should still try with this other person. I'm just gonna feel like a loser right? I dunno, but then again, there's no harm in trying right? I dunno...so confused!
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